I always said that after Scared to Death broke up I was going to go on to front a band. I had never just been a singer in a band before. I had always played guitar or drums, so I really wanted to try it out. By the fall of 2010, Scared to Death was on hiatus and the other 3 bands I was in (Damaged / Geist / TMI) broke up. I felt depressed and a little lost at the time. Forming a new band to fill the void didn't feel like the right thing to do, either. I was feeling overwhelmed by a lot personal things in my life at the time, so I decided I should take some time off from playing in bands to focus on myself. I had been writing songs, though, for over a year that I wanted to sing. So I decided to start Outside Looking In as a one person recording project instead of forming a new band.
It took me a couple of months to finalize all the songs for the demo. The music was easy but writing the lyrics took me the longest, because I wanted them to be good and not filler. Lyrically I want to talk about my confusion and frustration with my life (Exhausted But Nowhere), judgmental people (Old Man), personal shame (Can't Talk Can't Hide), shortcomings of the punk scene (Another Disheartening Night / Blah Blah Blah), and toxic masculine (Sick of Your Shit / Conquest For Death). Being that I'm fairly a private and introverted person, writing the lyrics were a healthy outlet for myself.
I started recording the demo in late May and finished in mid July. I recorded it all in a storage unit and my apartment on an old busted 4-track cassette recorder. At the time, I had a decent digital recording setup, but I decided to record on my 4-track instead for a more gritty sound. In the end, the demo turned out differently than I had hoped, but as a whole, I was happy with it.
By time the demo came out, I felt comfortable about playing in bands again and decided to form a live line up. I wanted to still keep the band as my personal recording project but play shows from time to time. After a year of playing shows, though, it just didn't feel satisfying to keep it as only a personal recording project. I wanted to work together as a group and push what we were doing. Playing in a band with all of my closes friends has truly been the best, and I wouldn't want it any other way.
Genre: Hardcore Punk
Year: 2011
Second Show Ever
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